out of the ash i rise with my red hair

avon_nova @ 2009-11-01T19:09:00

2009-11-02T02:09:32Z

dear old friend,

you deserve better.
and you know it.

avon_nova @ 2009-10-21T20:24:00

2009-10-22T03:34:32Z

I can't remember the last time I was so excited to go to school everyday.
Cortiva has been everything I could've ever dreamed of.
It's only week three and I can already give a pretty great 50 minute massage.
Once I get my table (in about 4-5 weeks), hit me up & I'll happily practice on you!
=]

Hugg & I are great.
Being with him is so right.
<3

Right now, I am loving life & I really like it.
goodnight, all.

tried using my old lj...just didn't feel right

2009-08-08T21:51:35Z

new york was amazing.
as it always is.
i love my family.
i had a blast.
i missed hugg.
i won't complain.

family life is as it usually always is.
torn apart.
vincent is out of jail.
my mom and franki got into a fight yesterday.
franki is now living with one of her friends.
i won't complain.

i've changed my career plans.
i'm not going to asu.
i've decided to get into massage therapy.
my mom is dissapointed but said she would support me.
i guess i can't really expect any other reaction.
i won't complain.

i have a meeting on tuesday with the head of admissions at the cortiva institute of massage therapy.
i'm going to get all the information/financial aid settled, then i'm going to apply.
i'm excited/nervous/happy.
my aunt, my cousins, francesca and mike all support me.
right now, that's all i need.
and i'm grateful for it.

i've been talking to my dad via email for the past two months or so.
i have a feeling that's going to stop very soon.
i won't be apart of the illusion he has created for himself.
i won't accept it.

life is so funny sometimes.

avon_nova @ 2009-05-15T15:41:00

2009-05-15T22:51:07Z

It's hard to believe I'm actually graduating tonight.
Two years has literally flown by.
I entered as an 18 year old high school grad.
And now I'm leaving as a 20 year old college grad.
I feel like a totally different person.
It's nice to think of how much I've changed.
I'm excited to see what's next.
=]

avon_nova @ 2009-04-23T17:15:00

2009-04-24T00:18:14Z

one week.
going strong.
=]

avon_nova @ 2009-03-08T20:07:00

2009-03-09T03:09:45Z

i don't want to say too much about it.
so i'll just say a little bit.
last night was badass all the way around.
<3

avon_nova @ 2009-02-28T14:29:00

2009-02-28T21:30:18Z

~~cunt sucking twat waffle~~

avon_nova @ 2009-02-20T15:29:00

2009-02-20T22:41:12Z

well ladies and gentlemen, i officially have a new phone =D
it's a samsung sway and it's my new favorite.
i feel like i'm reconnected to the outside world.

my mom got married on valentines day.
yes it's cheesy, but she's happy and that's all that matters.
i feel bad because i'm not really overly excited.
i'm happy but i don't think i should be expected to jump up and down and clap my hands.
i just want her and rob to stay out of my way.
rude.
yes.
selfish.
yes.
but it's how i feel.

school is going well.
graduation is coming up.
i officially think i'm ready to go leave mesa.
if only for a little bit.

i'm making new friends at mcc.
it's funny because it's like the first semester i've done so.
rachel and elyse have both been really great.
not to mention jacob..<3

i've been buying books like crazy.
i love reading and i can't help it.
i've noticed that i have to read books in series.
i always need more information.

tonight is underworld with my two favorite girls =]
finally after weeks of wanting to see it!!
saturday is pink floyd with my favorite rockers <3
&monday is oreganos with my best friends to celebrate my birthday.

right now, life is good.

avon_nova @ 2009-02-18T09:13:00

2009-02-18T16:14:58Z

alrighty well i'm trying to get phone numbers from everyone.
i lost my phone..go figure.
but i'll be getting a new one tomorrow.
so leave a comment with your number and i'll put it in my new phone.
thanks =]

avon_nova @ 2009-01-26T15:19:00

2009-01-26T22:21:25Z

Maybe someone can explain to me why I have a constant headache everyday?
Why my headache can't be cured with 1500 mg of tylenol?
Any insight on this matter would be greatly appreciated.
=(

avon_nova @ 2009-01-25T18:29:00

2009-01-26T01:33:16Z

one week down.
seventeen more to go..
=]

shoo bop shoo bop

2009-01-09T17:16:26Z

me: tell me if you think this is stupid.

me: a friend of mine got his girlfriends initials tattooed on the bottom lip..

him: its not that stupid because the tattoo will be gone soon.

me: it's so strange to me. he has another tattoo from an ex gf thats not going anywhere anytime soon.

him: some ladies like dudes with their name on their body.

him: part of me thinks it's cool, and romantic in it's 50's kind of way, but part of me thinks its retarded.

me: i think its kind of foolish. what happens when the relationship ends? pictures can be thrown away, but a tattoo is almost always permanent

him: it just depends you know? i can't really say either way

me: yeah i understand. so...you..uh..wanna get my name tattooed on your arm? =]

him: if i was romantic in a 50's kind of way

him: then yes

some nights, when it's good, it's good.
=]

avon_nova @ 2009-01-07T14:46:00

2009-01-07T21:49:53Z

It's not going to take long before more people start falling off your pedestal. And then you'll only have yourself. And trust me when I say this...it gets very lonely at the top.

avon_nova @ 2009-01-05T09:06:00

2009-01-05T16:20:48Z

I think people are sharing a common misconception about the kind of person I am.
I am not the kind of person to be bullied or peer pressured into doing anything.
Maybe I haven't made myself clear on that fact.
I will not do anything I don't want to do.
Try to make me feel stupid about it.
I'll be happy to turn a deaf ear on you.
I am the kind of person who will do something if she wants, no matter what others have to say.
I am not the kind of person who cares what other people think about me.
If you want to talk shit, please do.
Watch me as I walk away from you forever.
I'm not the kind of person who follows a mindless leader.
I do what I want, and I don't feel the need to explain myself to anyone.
I've realized that I have a lot of things going on inside my head.
I usually don't express them because I don't care what people have to say about them.
But maybe it's time I start.
If others can say whatever they want, without caring if it hurts someone, then I think I can.
I don't want to be mean, but I'm not going to be afraid to say what I have to say.
I've held back for far too long.

avon_nova @ 2009-01-02T08:54:00

2009-01-02T16:00:02Z

2008 is pretty damn great.
2009 will be even better.
i love my friends.
they love me, even when i do things they don't think i should.
i am me.

im drinking a green tea lemonade with one pump of raspberry.
it makes me think of summer, and i actually like it.

today i have work from 8:30-12.
after that?
reading, hopefully.
after that?
lunch with my brother?
after that?
movies with kristiboo.

i pierced my nose.
steph came with me.
she held my hand.

new years was nice.
too many cop cars.
but clueless was amazing.
and so were the people i was hanging out with.

=]

avon_nova @ 2008-12-29T16:02:00

2008-12-29T23:07:52Z

Well this weekend has been an emotional roller coaster.
I had such an amazing time with my friends.
And I truly can't complain about anything that happened when I was with them.
But needless to say that things at home are strained.
I woke up saturday morning to the sound of things being moved around my house.
So I decided to investigate.
In my driveway there was an enormous dumpster with a lot of stuff in it.
I found some stuff that I thought my mom would want to keep and as I tried to show each item to her, Rob would either interject a protest about throwing it away, or he would actually try to grab the item out of my hands.
Do I look like someone who can be walked all over?
Do you think I'll go down without a fight?
Think again.
In the garage there were a few boxes labeled as mine.
Every time I picked something out of the box to look at it, Rob would say "Throw it away, Jen." or "It's trash, toss it." or my favorite "Let it go Jen."
...
I'm sorry, is this your stuff?
Are you throwing away memories of your childhood?
I didn't think so.
You're a third party, and if I want to keep my Padme Amidala barbie doll, I will!
i know it may sound childish, but this is my stuff.
He wants me to throw away my books.
Has anyone ever known me to throw away books?
No.
Never.
I have a feeling he got ahold of a few of my things and tossed them, but most of the stuff I wanted to keep, is safe in my room.
I wish Francesca were here.
At least she'd be complaining silently with me.

ugh..I'm sorry if this is a stupid post.
I'm truly pissed off.

avon_nova @ 2008-12-20T11:54:00

2008-12-20T19:09:50Z

the semester is over!
and the grades are as follows:
Anthropology-A
Magic, Witchcraft & Healing-A
Film & Literature-A
Biology-B
College Algebra-C
the results= 3.375.
i'm pleased.
VERY pleased.
i don't think i've seen my mom so proud.
i had a really fun semester, but i'm glad it's over.

lastnight was amazing.
i love my friends like no other.
we're such a fun group.

winter break is upon us.
and i have 15 wonderful books lined up.
plus i have a million movies i want to see.
needless to say it'll be a very chill month.
=]

i hope everyone did well on their finals.
enjoy your break and be safe!
<3

avon_nova @ 2008-12-09T13:06:00

2008-12-09T20:07:15Z

Oh Chuck Bass, let me comfort you.
<33

don't you think the joker laughs at you..

2008-12-08T21:58:34Z

"Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one"

r.i.p
<3

avon_nova @ 2008-12-07T11:13:00

2008-12-07T18:36:52Z

Friday was really wonderful.
Other than getting lost.
I haven't had so much fun in a long time.
Serena&Char, you both made my night.
&Supernatural is amazing.
Thank you for introducing me to it.
And of course, the boba was sooo good.

So I got accepted to NAU.
I'm going.
Thanks to everyone who supported me.
I love you all.
And trust me, I will miss you all.
I'm not leaving untill August.
And I want to see everyone before i go.
Let's cause some chaos.
Peace&Love.
<3

avon_nova @ 2008-12-04T16:54:00

2008-12-04T23:56:08Z

unless mine eyes deceive me, chilly weather is in my future.

avon_nova @ 2008-11-29T17:20:00

2008-11-30T01:04:13Z

none of you know her.
she didn't work in politics.
her name wasn't in the news.
her picture wasn't in the papers.

she was a daughter of the world war II.
the second oldest of five children.
at night she hid under her mothers house in italy with her sisters.
away from nazi soldiers who came into town looking for young girls.
she married a man who loved her more than anything else in this world.
together they moved to canada and had four sons.
they raised their family in the beautiful italian traditions.

her sons were married.
and all had children.
both sons and daughters.
as time went on, her mind slowly began to slip away.
she lost her husband a few years ago.
and still her mind was leaving.

she lived an amazing life.
and today, she left us forever.
i love you, aunt maria.
rest in peace.
<3

tell me what to be thankful for..

2008-11-27T01:17:28Z

I am thankful for my family. They are healthy and happy and I would be lost without them. I am thankful for my friends. They are my life support and without them I couldn't get through all the good times or the bad. I am thankful for being born in America. Although I disagree with a lot of what has been going on, I love my country. I love that I can express my feelings and my beliefs without being afraid of punishment.

I fear for the world. I fear for the state of our country. I fear that I will lose everything I have.

I'm watching the news right now. I am so sad for Mumbai. Haven't enough people suffered? Haven't enough people died? Is our war in Iraq not enough destruction for everyone? Is peace such an outragous concept? I suppose it is.

Now there is news about possible terrorist attacks on the New York Subway over the holiday season. What has happened to our world?

I am thankful. But tonight, I couldn't be more sad.

avon_nova @ 2008-11-24T16:35:00

2008-11-24T23:37:06Z

i feel really good today.
=]

avon_nova @ 2008-10-25T23:03:00

2008-10-26T06:04:41Z

halloween is just around the corner.
let the witching begin.
=]